Behind those smiles of mine, are one million and one questions playing on a repeat inside my head. Many of those questions are highly related to “What if” and “Should I”.
I have written an e-book about embracing my life but do not be fooled. We are humans after all. As much as I try to make things all look and sound better for the world to see, inside of me, is a constant battle between achieving the very best and when can I achieve the very best.
I am thriving. We are all thriving.
As the year of 2017 coming to an end, I found myself reflecting and analysing what I have learned and changed.
I realised that for one, I have totally grown and changed. Looking back and trying to remember the Joanne from one, two or even five years ago, seems strange to me.
I have learned to walk away from toxic and negative events or people. If I engage in a conversation and I find myself being surrounded by negative and idiotic people, I walked away. No explanation given. I do not owe anyone an explanation for wanting to guard my own energy.
I re-activated my Facebook account not to stalk but for me, it is the good time to reconnect with my childhood friends, high school and university friends and even my family. With a condition, I removed everyone that is from work and whom I feel are negative ad irrelevant to me.
Once upon a time, I could share many pictures and post on my Facebook as a way to connect with people dear to me but once I started to add colleagues from work, I became cautious. So, instead of being cautious, I removed the source of evil and continue living my life. At the end of the day, being happy and at ease is all that matter.
Aside from these, I am still taking it one-step at a time. Hoping to find some answers to my million and one questions.
I am still not sure how everything will end up for me though, but all I know is that with hard work, focus, patience and determination, whatever I am currently working for will arrive. One day, I will look back at this journey and appreciate all the growing up it made me do.
My motto as always, Hustle hard and stay humble.
So, what’s your story?